Tuesday, April 22, 2008
He also reassured me that even at this early date, my chances of a miscarriage have declined to less than 10%, and after 10 more days, they'll be below 5%.
Needless to say, Billy and I are suddenly feeling a lot better about things. Now, as if you can actually see ANYTHING in these pictures, here is Butch:
Monday, April 21, 2008
My brother and his wife found out today that they are having a baby BOY in August, and we couldn't be happier. They already have twin girls, so I'm sure Jay will welcome a little extra testosterone in the house. A SON--how cool is THAT? (I know because I have one.)
Saturday, April 19, 2008
As most of you know, I cheated and POAS on Tuesday, April 10, a day before my scheduled beta test. I got a clear BFP, so I called Dr. Dunn's office to see if I could go ahead and come in for the blood test. Gloria said come on; no problem.
So I drove up there with Max and Teri and gave my blood. We decided to go over to the zoo and walk around while we waited for my results. I was feeling kind of crampy, but I didn't think much of it, because I had felt that way for several days and just attributed it to early pregnancy. However, when I went to the bathroom about an hour into our walk, I was panicked to discover I was (perhaps TMI) gushing blood--LOTS of it. I immediately started shaking and crying and trying to call Gloria (my nurse) from the bathroom stall. Unfortunately, she was at lunch, and the on-duty nurse couldn't tell me much more than 1) they had not yet received the results of my blood test; and 2) I needed to get the hell out of that zoo as fast as possible and get home to bed.
Teri took off and summoned the zoo shuttle to come pick us up, so thankfully, I didn't have to try to walk the mile out of there. I was in a total daze all the way home, certain that I was miscarrying; in my mind, the whole thing was over before it had ever really started, and I was devastated. However, Gloria called me back as we were walking into the house and told me my beta number was 112 (a good, strong number for that early); and she was surprisingly unconcerned about the bleeding. She told me that it's totally common, especially in women who have had as much "work done" as I have and not to worry. She said just take it easy over the weekend and come back in for another beta on Monday. Remember, this was Thursday--THURSDAY!!!--so this was much easier said than done.
Billy and I decided to go out to the lake for the weekend as we had previously planned. We figured I could relax just as easily out there as I could at home, if not moreso. I stayed on self-imposed bedrest most of the weekend, and while I continued to have spotting for the next three days, I didn't have any more major bleeding. I was still convinced, however, that I was having a miscarriage, despite the fact that I continued to get BFP's on the HPT's I was taking every morning. I know those home tests detect HCG at around 50, so I knew my number could have dropped and I would still get a positive. Something about POAS was reassuring, though, so I continued to do it. It was all I had, really, at that point.
On Monday the 14th (my BIRTHDAY, FGS!) I went back for my second beta test. This time I got the callback as I was sitting at Pappa's Seafood for my birthday lunch with my family. The news was still worrisome: my beta had only risen to 246. The good news was that it had risen, but it SHOULD have been up around 400 by that time and it wasn't. Things still did not look promising. And Gloria STILL could not tell me much other than to come back Wednesday for yet another test.
FINALLY...my beta came back at 620 on Wednesday! Gloria said everything looked good, and I could stop worrying so much and start getting excited about this pregnancy. Billy and I were so relieved that we both cried. It was just SUCH a relief, I can't even describe it.
We will have our first ultrasound on Tuesday, and I will feel much better after that. If everything is going well, we should be able to see the baby AND a heartbeat, which will make it all seem much more real. I'll post an update (and, hopefully, a picture) then...
Love to all!!!
Monday, April 14, 2008
BUT--Happy Birthday to me!!! There is no doubt we are pregnant, but we did have a brief scare late last week. I'm actually headed to the doctor right now to have it checked out, but it looks like everything is going to be fine. I'll post an update later.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
The good news is that I have felt like crap (headache and nausea) since last night.
God, please continue to give me strength...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Here are some of the more realistic symptoms I have found that I DO have:
- Elevated temp? Check. I'm sweating like a pig, and Billy's going to KILL me when he sees the AC bill!
- Acne? Check. I look like a teenager (and not in a good way).
- Intermittent abdominal cramps? Check. But these could also mean AF is on her way.
- Weird cravings? Check. I ate buttered spaghetti noodles for breakfast today--all I could stomach.
- Periods of deep night sleep interrupted by periods of wakefulness? Check. 3 a.m. seems to be the magic hour; I have awakened the past three nights at this time.
- Fatigue? Check. I can't keep my eyes open past 9 p.m. (except for when I wake up at 3, of course!).
- Sore throat? Check. A weird one, I know, but I saw it listed a lot; and sure enough, I have one. Go figure.
- And, of course, there are the TMI symptoms I won't elaborate on. Just know that there are some.
My biggest problem at this point is that most of this stuff could also be caused by the progesterone shots I am still taking, or PMS, which would mean I am definitely NOT pregnant.
I am continuing to hold out on the POAS, but it's getting really hard, even though I know it's still too early. I know for a fact I will do it Friday morning before my blood test, just so I have an idea of what to expect. Plus, I really love my nurse Gloria, and I want to spare her the discomfort of listening to my nervous breakdown if she has to deliver bad news.
Which she WON'T...I'm determined to stay positive.
Crazy and obsessive, but POSITIVE.
UPDATE: It's 3 p.m., and I just returned from CVS, where I purchased milk, apple juice, and a two-pack of First Responses. I SWEAR I will wait until at least Thursday (I only have two tests, after all.) Stay tuned...
Friday, April 4, 2008
Last night, a security system salesman came to our door, and Max immediately struck up a conversation with him.
Max: What's your name?
Max: You have a big fat belly, Justin!
Whoa. That'll teach him to knock on OUR door!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
I can't stand the suspense!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
I think the green frog rain boots really complete the look, don't you?